For So Long

A friend (a real audiophile) and I were talking music online and as songs were recommended I would sample them and if I liked them I added them to my blip feed.  And then I clicked on the song "Slut" by Velvet Acid Christ.  I had never heard of them or this song.  To say that it affected me would be an understatement.  Yet, I can't point to a particular thing about it that makes it resonate with me so deeply.  I have added a lot of people to my life lately too.  Some of the people I am inexplicably drawn to or care about deeply have asked, "What was it about me?" And, my answer for them is the same as my explanation about this song.  

I have no idea.  None.  It just is.  And I'm so very glad I found you.

This poem wrote itself as I first listened to "Slut"

For So Long

when you're not aware 

that something is missing in your life 

you feel nothing about it.

you don't know what you don't know

but when someone pulls back the curtain

and exposes the giant gapping whole in your life

in your soul, 

your very existance...

you don't know you're missing something 

until it completes you

you can't help but feel 

an exquisite sort of pain
heartbreaking emptiness

that the missing part 

not only IS missing

but that it HAS BEEN missing...

for so long