Friday, May 21, 2010

For So Long

A friend (a real audiophile) and I were talking music online and as songs were recommended I would sample them and if I liked them I added them to my blip feed.  And then I clicked on the song "Slut" by Velvet Acid Christ.  I had never heard of them or this song.  To say that it affected me would be an understatement.  Yet, I can't point to a particular thing about it that makes it resonate with me so deeply.  I have added a lot of people to my life lately too.  Some of the people I am inexplicably drawn to or care about deeply have asked, "What was it about me?" And, my answer for them is the same as my explanation about this song.  

I have no idea.  None.  It just is.  And I'm so very glad I found you.

This poem wrote itself as I first listened to "Slut"

For So Long

when you're not aware 
that something is missing in your life 
you feel nothing about it.
you don't know what you don't know
but when someone pulls back the curtain
and exposes the giant gapping whole in your life
in your soul, 

your very existance...

you don't know you're missing something 
until it completes you
you can't help but feel 
an exquisite sort of pain
heartbreaking emptiness
that the missing part 
not only IS missing
but that it HAS BEEN missing...

for so long

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